Monday, April 21, 2014

When it is time to say No

I can't believe it has been so long since I have posted - well maybe I can! Crazy!!

It has continued to be a whirlwind of activity around here and Blogging just hasn't been a priority these days.  I know that some day it will be and that I really want this to be one of my outlets for creativity and sharing.  I'll get it together somehow :).

I had a wonderful learning experience this past month (ok 3 months).  I had decided to have the Sunday school kids do an Easter skit to an amazing song.  It ended up being a really good experience and was a blessing - however, I realized that after doing these "special events" for 9 years, I was no longer operating in God's Grace. God gives us grace to do the things He has called us to do.  One of my callings has been "hole plugging" which is why I have so many hats in the church.  When God brings in the person who is supposed to do that job then I step away and no longer need to be concerned about it.  However, until that happens - it is my job.

I realized that I am so used to hole-plugging in the children's ministry and that special events is a part of that, so I just jumped in and did what I have been doing for so long.  I then realized in the last few weeks of preparations that I was operating in an area that I was no longer called to do.  I had a vision, but there were others who could have carried it out with Grace.

I was miserable, stressed, and resentful during this whole process.  I was exhausted and it showed. And for that I apologize - Grace is an amazing gift that God gives us. But just like when we take on other people's offenses, if we are trying to do something that He hasn't given us Grace to do it makes us miserable and many times doesn't work.

I love those kids and I love God - but these special events are not for me anymore.  I know I had to go through it to realize that it is time for me to step back, and I am so grateful that God still used it to bless others, and I am even more grateful that it is over.

I know that sounds really negative but we have to be able to acknowledge when we realize that something isn't working anymore. I won't allow my pride to get in the way - I know longer have that gifting (at least not right now).  I need to focus on the areas that God wants me to focus on, and trust that others will step up in the other areas or that it is ok to not do them.

This was all very freeing - painful, but freeing!

Monday, November 18, 2013

Designate Space & Time

These last few months have been a whirlwind of activity - you can probably tell from all my posts lately.

Even though it has been hectic - it has been good, we are all working towards awesomeness :).

One of the struggles I have had though is keeping up with everything.  I am having a hard time juggling work with home, my studies with the girl's studies, cooking with cleaning, and of course "Me" time with "Everybody Else" time.

We were gone for the weekend and so on our way home I was going through the TO DO's for this week and starting to get stressed about it all.  I have been prioritizing more lately but it seems that the things that are lower on the list never get moved up - they have to get finished (or started) at sometime. I have been on a quest to simplify and make certain tasks a little easier and so a thought came to me.  I struggle because I am always having to reorganize, clean-up, move stuff around. and what I really need to do it designate spaces for certain tasks and not allow other tasks to go into those spaces.

Example: Homeschooling, we do not have a designated space.  One girl prefers the kitchen table the other girl has no preference and will do her work anywhere (or not do her work anywhere).  But the problem is that when we are getting ready to use the kitchen for its intended use, we are having to spend ample time cleaning up all the school stuff.  The kitchen has always been the mail drop off, charging of various devices zone also.

By the time everything is cleaned up a little bit of frustration has now set in and the time spent in the kitchen is less than productive.

Solution: I got up this morning and cleared space in the den for the girls to do their school work in there.  A central location that can be seen from the other rooms yet enclosed enough that school can be contained to that area.  The kitchen is for cooking - period. I cleared off the buffet in the kitchen that was the host of the various mail baskets and charging cords and put my crock pot, mixer, blender and food processor there. I am more likely to use them if I am not having to lug them out of a closet each time. All work stuff is in the den where they are working while I am working and we can discuss and help without me running to different rooms each time.

I am also working on the designation of time.  Certain tasks need to be done at certain times and then when that time is up than I need to not think about it anymore. The thoughts of house cleaning invade my study time and vise versa, I need to focus on the matter at hand and not on all the other stuff I am trying to do. This includes the "Me" time - I'll let you know how that goes.  I am notorious for staking out some me time and then spending it thinking about what I need to get done.

Let's see how this works out!

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Obedience Is...

I asked my Sunday School class this morning what obedience is.  One of the kids gave this answer - "Obedience is Love".  Wow, most of them were responding with things like "Listening to your parents"; "Doing what your told"; one even said "Obeying" :).

But when this one young lady replied with this answer I was blown away.  She is absolutely right, Obedience is Love.

Obedience is an act of love, obedience is an act of respect, obedience is an act humility, obedience is an act of trust. This made me ask myself these 2 questions:

What areas am I being obedient in?

What areas in my life am I not acting in obedience/love?

I think I need to work on a few things....

Sunday, July 7, 2013

If you can't say anything nice....

I remember as a child hearing the saying "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all."

I have recently become more aware of how people feel it is necessary to criticize others when they don't agree.  Case in point - I love Pinterest! I have recently discovered the benefits of this little gem in planning my home school "Stuff" like organization, possible curriculum etc.  I came across a few pins where in the comment section people who obviously didn't agree with homeschooling, made comments criticizing the practice.  My first thought was - why are you commenting?  This is a pin clearly labeled for "home school" so why are you even looking at it and in looking at it, why do you feel it is necessary to criticize?

I see this also a lot on Facebook - I have a FB account because it allows me to stay in touch with people that I just don't get to see very often if at all.  Some of my friends decide to use it as a platform for their opinions - whatever floats your boat!  I choose not to do this, but it amazes me how often someone will post about something they believe in and how others have the audacity to tell them they are wrong!  If you don't agree, MOVE ON, SCROLL DOWN, BLOCK or UNFRIEND!  Why does there have to be a debate via Facebook for everyone else to see. I have to say that the critical comments never change the other person's mind. In fact I think it just shows the commenter's ignorance to the fact that not everyone has to agree with you. I have friends who have different perspectives on things, and no I may not agree with them, but that doesn't mean I have the right to disrespect them on their own page.  It may mean that I pray for them a little more but not disrespect them.

Just a thought: If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.

Sunday, June 30, 2013

Abundant Blessings

Wow, let me just say again, Wow!  It is amazing what is happening these days. The Lord is rocking our world let me tell you.  Prayers are being answered, prophecies are being fulfilled, true spiritual growth is happening among my family and church.

For me in particular - the Lord is showing me how to put into action all these things that He has put on my heart.  I am learning how to get organized, focused and actually accomplish the tasks at hand.  How is this happening, you ask? Obedience, simple and pure obedience.  I am in the Word everyday, whether I feel like it or not.  I am fasting one morning a week, whether I feel like it or not.  I am praying throughout the day and praising Him continually. Why - Philippians 4:6-7 that's why!

He told me to make a schedule so I made a schedule and I am sticking to it.  It is amazing the peace you feel when you realize that you don't have to accomplish everything in the moment that it comes to your mind.  I tell myself - "I will take care of that at the appointed time." and I am released from feeling like I am overwhelmed.

He wants me to embrace what He is giving me, not be overwhelmed by it.  And by being obedient, He is answering prayers and revealing His intentions.

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Commitments update

Well, considering it has been over 2 months since I last posted, I would have to say that the commitment of posting every week has in fact - FAILED.

As far as all the other ones, I think I am still going strong.  But then again how would you know since I haven't posted anything in over two months - oh well :)

The last several weeks have consisted of remodeling projects that must be finished before our vacation in a couple of weeks because by the time we return we will be hitting monsoon season.  We have been redoing our decks.  I have never been so tired in all my life, well maybe after giving birth.  But since then I have not worked so hard.  I am bruised and battered but the job is finally finished.

I also have wrapped up co-teaching a Bible Study with my dad - the Preacher Man.  That was really cool and I really learned a lot.  Not just about that particular Bible study but also about my capability in teaching.  I am really gaining confidence in this area.  I also preached for the 3rd time and I am really happy with how that went as well.  I finished up the Peacemakers study with the Sunday school kids and we are now preparing for them to "Preach" one Sunday this month and teach the adults what they have learned.

So as you can see I do have some good reasons for not posting for awhile - I will try to do better. Umm well actually the rest of this month may be challenging but starting in July - I promise (maybe)...

Monday, March 25, 2013

Joyfully Busy

Wow, I am all of a sudden a force to be reckon with, let me tell you!

Don't know if it is the Kale/Spinach/fruit smoothies I have been drinking, the fact that I am consistently working out 3 days a week, the fact that I am sleeping better due to getting a newer mattress from some friends of ours, or the fact that last week I had an incredible day where I experienced pure joy and have been continuing to experience it ever since - or maybe all the above!

Not sure what it is but I am going to go with it - this weekend I finally cleaned out the rat infested shed.  My dad came over and helped me take two loads to the dump. That really got the ball rolling and I ended up spending a good portion of Saturday cleaning out the rest.

Now I have to tell you that the shed has bothered me for over a year.  I have a rodent phobia of sorts, I pretty much get hysterical at the sight of any kind of rodent - mice, rats, gerbils, ferrets etc. etc.

Luckily, I never saw any just their damage to numerous boxes  and all the remnants that they thought of the shed as their castle. I must have shoveled a bag full of their little leftovers - yes the shed was full of rat dooty!  But I got it done, mostly because I was fed up.

I have also cleaned out the garage and  am planning out my garden, which I will be starting in the next few weeks.

Usually, when I look at my list of To-Do's I instantly get overwhelmed. This week however, I look at this list and think - I can do and I can do it well. One job at a time, one day at a time. Done.