Sunday, January 25, 2015

Who Knew...

Who knew that spraining my ankle would also affect my brain?

Ever since I sprained my ankle I have been thinking differently.  I use to think in terms of "I have to do this right now" or "After I do this, I need to do that" or "Everyone is counting on me." or "If you want it done right do it yourself."

But for the last few weeks I have had to change how I think. I have had to learn to give myself grace, I have had to ask myself things like "Do I really need to accomplish that right now?" or  "What is the most important thing to accomplish today and what can wait?" or "Who can do that instead of me?".

This has been a very frustrating, painful, yet liberating experience.  I had so many plans for the month of January, however, instead I have watched approximately16 hours of The Hobbit movies with my girls. I have gone grocery shopping once - and we did not starve.  My house has been vacuumed once this month - and I am OK with it. 

You know that saying about you don't know how important something is till you loose it (or something like that).

I have learned that I need to exercise and I will not take it for granted again. I have learned that I really like shaving my legs while standing up in the shower.  I have learned that I like doing things for my family (although I have also learned that they can do for themselves also).  I have learned that I miss walking with the dogs outside. And finally, I have learned the importance of strong ankles when trying to get up from the toilet!  Sorry, but that is what is going through my brain right now.

I have not been my normal on top of everything self and that's OK...Who knew that this painful experience would be fruitful?

Isaiah 66:9New Century Version (NCV)

In the same way I will not cause pain
    without allowing something new to be born,” says the Lord.
“If I cause you the pain,
    I will not stop you from giving birth to your new nation,” says your God.

Apparently God did :)

Monday, January 12, 2015

When we are too busy...

When we are too busy....

Sometimes God will allow us to stumble so that we have to look up!

This is exactly what happened to me January 2nd.  I was bound and determined to get the Christmas decorations put back out into the garage despite the fact that we had had a winter storm come through southern Arizona.  It was about 29 degrees outside which of course means that there was a good chance that there would be ice - somewhere.

As I was going through my kitchen door onto the porch, I discovered exactly where the ice was.  Under my foot - sure enough, the next thing I know, I am hearing sickening pop and while landing on my rear I see stars and can't breathe. I hear my husband yell to me as he is rushing to my side but I couldn't answer him. They (he and my eldest daughter) pick me up, luckily both are bigger than me.

I don't even want to look - I get to the couch and immediately put my foot up and they get me ice and all I can think about it "please don't be broken".  Luckily it isn't, just a very bad sprain, but it has forced me to be on the couch.

It is very painful but I have to say that even more than that is the frustration of having to rely on others to help me.  That isn't me - I am a doer. I am the one who does for others, I am the one who takes care of all those little details. I am the one who comes through and shows up and gets it done.

Needless to say that I have had to be brought to tears and instead of looking at all the things I am not getting done, I am having to look up.  Look up and say "Lord, I need Your help to let this all go."  "Lord, I hate this but I am going to learn something from it."  "Lord, give me peace and patience."

I also was greatly blessed by my family who jumped in to take care of me and my girls even laid hands on me and prayed for me (that was awesome).  I still have a lot to do but I know that none of it is going to get done without me looking up first. God is good all the time.

Monday, January 5, 2015

Exceedingly Abundantly - 2015

Ephesians 3:20-21 (NKJV)

20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.

I love these verses – but normally my focus has been on the word “power”.  I would read these when I felt helpless and I would read them when I felt fired-up.  I loved the fact that these verses tell us that we have power in Christ Jesus.

The last time however, my attention was brought to the phrase - exceedingly abundantly!  

For weeks I have been so focused on these 2 words. 

We have a habit of limiting God in our lives because we try so hard to understand intellectually everything about Him.
But when you think about what verse 20 is saying - 20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.

There is no way that we can understand all that God can do because what He can do exceeds what we are capable of thinking. 

This verse is also telling us that He is going to do these immeasurable acts through us.  We are going to be used to do these exceedingly abundantly acts, acts that we cannot even imagine. And we will do this with His supernatural power.

So let’s really think about this:

1 missionary could walk into a village and because of the presence of God in his life, the entire village could be saved.
1 person could walk in a hospital and instantly because of God’s supernatural power that is dwelling in that person – every patient is instantly healed and saved.
1 teenager who is born again – walks into their high school, and because of the Dunami Power that he/she is filled with, every student and teacher is saved.

But wait a minute – I thought of these, and this verse says that He can do exceedingly abundantly above all that we can ask or think.  Any one of these acts could happen plus abundantly more. Isn’t that amazing!  We can’t even think of what He will use us for. And yet how many times in our lives do we think that something is impossible, that we won’t be able to accomplish something. 

Think about events on your life that you are just amazed at – that you know without a doubt that God had His hand in them and you think back now and can’t believe that it happened.

We need to understand that we may not understand everything about God, but that we need to understand that He can do exceedingly abundantly with us and through us.

Think about the most beautiful yet outrageous act that would glorify God and then understand that He can use you to exceed that.

Romans 12:2
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

We can’t think like the world and be able to prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

The world thinks in “impossibles” – Renewing your mind in this instance means that you start thinking in “possibilities” instead.

The world thinks “You have to understand it” – Renewing our mind means, you believe it even when you don’t understand it.

If you think about it – I don’t want to know all that God can do, I love being amazed. I love it when something happens and He blows my mind.  I don’t want to understand everything because I love those moments when He wows me and you know what?  I think He likes them too!

How do you feel when you do something amazing for someone and you get to see their reaction – He likes that too!

So I challenge you:

During 2015– let’s make the choice to focus on these phrases instead of the things that frustrate us, let us dwell on what God can do instead of what we can’t do. 

Ask God to use you to do exceedingly abundantly more this New Year through His dynamite power. Give Him the go ahead to blow your mind at how He will use you.

Let’s stop settling for what the world thinks and let’s start thinking exceedingly abundantly.

Monday, April 21, 2014

When it is time to say No

I can't believe it has been so long since I have posted - well maybe I can! Crazy!!

It has continued to be a whirlwind of activity around here and Blogging just hasn't been a priority these days.  I know that some day it will be and that I really want this to be one of my outlets for creativity and sharing.  I'll get it together somehow :).

I had a wonderful learning experience this past month (ok 3 months).  I had decided to have the Sunday school kids do an Easter skit to an amazing song.  It ended up being a really good experience and was a blessing - however, I realized that after doing these "special events" for 9 years, I was no longer operating in God's Grace. God gives us grace to do the things He has called us to do.  One of my callings has been "hole plugging" which is why I have so many hats in the church.  When God brings in the person who is supposed to do that job then I step away and no longer need to be concerned about it.  However, until that happens - it is my job.

I realized that I am so used to hole-plugging in the children's ministry and that special events is a part of that, so I just jumped in and did what I have been doing for so long.  I then realized in the last few weeks of preparations that I was operating in an area that I was no longer called to do.  I had a vision, but there were others who could have carried it out with Grace.

I was miserable, stressed, and resentful during this whole process.  I was exhausted and it showed. And for that I apologize - Grace is an amazing gift that God gives us. But just like when we take on other people's offenses, if we are trying to do something that He hasn't given us Grace to do it makes us miserable and many times doesn't work.

I love those kids and I love God - but these special events are not for me anymore.  I know I had to go through it to realize that it is time for me to step back, and I am so grateful that God still used it to bless others, and I am even more grateful that it is over.

I know that sounds really negative but we have to be able to acknowledge when we realize that something isn't working anymore. I won't allow my pride to get in the way - I know longer have that gifting (at least not right now).  I need to focus on the areas that God wants me to focus on, and trust that others will step up in the other areas or that it is ok to not do them.

This was all very freeing - painful, but freeing!

Monday, November 18, 2013

Designate Space & Time

These last few months have been a whirlwind of activity - you can probably tell from all my posts lately.

Even though it has been hectic - it has been good, we are all working towards awesomeness :).

One of the struggles I have had though is keeping up with everything.  I am having a hard time juggling work with home, my studies with the girl's studies, cooking with cleaning, and of course "Me" time with "Everybody Else" time.

We were gone for the weekend and so on our way home I was going through the TO DO's for this week and starting to get stressed about it all.  I have been prioritizing more lately but it seems that the things that are lower on the list never get moved up - they have to get finished (or started) at sometime. I have been on a quest to simplify and make certain tasks a little easier and so a thought came to me.  I struggle because I am always having to reorganize, clean-up, move stuff around. and what I really need to do it designate spaces for certain tasks and not allow other tasks to go into those spaces.

Example: Homeschooling, we do not have a designated space.  One girl prefers the kitchen table the other girl has no preference and will do her work anywhere (or not do her work anywhere).  But the problem is that when we are getting ready to use the kitchen for its intended use, we are having to spend ample time cleaning up all the school stuff.  The kitchen has always been the mail drop off, charging of various devices zone also.

By the time everything is cleaned up a little bit of frustration has now set in and the time spent in the kitchen is less than productive.

Solution: I got up this morning and cleared space in the den for the girls to do their school work in there.  A central location that can be seen from the other rooms yet enclosed enough that school can be contained to that area.  The kitchen is for cooking - period. I cleared off the buffet in the kitchen that was the host of the various mail baskets and charging cords and put my crock pot, mixer, blender and food processor there. I am more likely to use them if I am not having to lug them out of a closet each time. All work stuff is in the den where they are working while I am working and we can discuss and help without me running to different rooms each time.

I am also working on the designation of time.  Certain tasks need to be done at certain times and then when that time is up than I need to not think about it anymore. The thoughts of house cleaning invade my study time and vise versa, I need to focus on the matter at hand and not on all the other stuff I am trying to do. This includes the "Me" time - I'll let you know how that goes.  I am notorious for staking out some me time and then spending it thinking about what I need to get done.

Let's see how this works out!

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Obedience Is...

I asked my Sunday School class this morning what obedience is.  One of the kids gave this answer - "Obedience is Love".  Wow, most of them were responding with things like "Listening to your parents"; "Doing what your told"; one even said "Obeying" :).

But when this one young lady replied with this answer I was blown away.  She is absolutely right, Obedience is Love.

Obedience is an act of love, obedience is an act of respect, obedience is an act humility, obedience is an act of trust. This made me ask myself these 2 questions:

What areas am I being obedient in?

What areas in my life am I not acting in obedience/love?

I think I need to work on a few things....

Sunday, July 7, 2013

If you can't say anything nice....

I remember as a child hearing the saying "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all."

I have recently become more aware of how people feel it is necessary to criticize others when they don't agree.  Case in point - I love Pinterest! I have recently discovered the benefits of this little gem in planning my home school "Stuff" like organization, possible curriculum etc.  I came across a few pins where in the comment section people who obviously didn't agree with homeschooling, made comments criticizing the practice.  My first thought was - why are you commenting?  This is a pin clearly labeled for "home school" so why are you even looking at it and in looking at it, why do you feel it is necessary to criticize?

I see this also a lot on Facebook - I have a FB account because it allows me to stay in touch with people that I just don't get to see very often if at all.  Some of my friends decide to use it as a platform for their opinions - whatever floats your boat!  I choose not to do this, but it amazes me how often someone will post about something they believe in and how others have the audacity to tell them they are wrong!  If you don't agree, MOVE ON, SCROLL DOWN, BLOCK or UNFRIEND!  Why does there have to be a debate via Facebook for everyone else to see. I have to say that the critical comments never change the other person's mind. In fact I think it just shows the commenter's ignorance to the fact that not everyone has to agree with you. I have friends who have different perspectives on things, and no I may not agree with them, but that doesn't mean I have the right to disrespect them on their own page.  It may mean that I pray for them a little more but not disrespect them.

Just a thought: If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all.